You, sir, are the most phantom-like of all: you are a mere dream.

In which Jane expresses her (seemingly unfounded) doubts about the impending wedding.

I, at least, had nothing more to do: there were my trunks, packed, locked, and corded, ranged in a row along the wall of my little chamber: to-morrow, at this time, they would be far on their road to London: and so should I […], – or rather, not I, but one Jane Rochester, a person whom as yet I knew not. The cards of address alone remained to nail on: they lay, four little squares, on the drawer. […] Mrs. Rochester! She did not exist: she would not be born till to-morrow, some time after eight o’ clock A.M.; and I would wait to be assured she had come into the world alive before I assigned to her all that property. It was enough that in yonder closet, opposite my dressing-table, garments said to be hers had already displaced my black stuff Lowood frock and straw bonnet: for not to me appertained that suit of wedding raiment, the pearl-coloured robe, the vapoury veil, pendant from the usurped portmanteau. I shut the closet, to conceal the strange, wraith-like apparel it contained; which, at this evening hour – nine o’clock – gave out certainly a most ghostly shimmer through the shadow of my apartment. “I will leave you by yourself, white dream,” I said. “I am feverish: I hear the wind blowing: I will go out of doors and feel it.”

But this is a little more than just your average cold feet…

I had at heart a strange and anxious thought. Something had happened which I could not comprehend; no one knew of or had seen the event but myself: it had taken place the preceding night. Mr. Rochester that night was absent from home; nor had he yet returned: business had called him to a small estate of two or three farms he possessed thirty miles off – business it was requisite he should settle in person, previously to his meditated departure from England. I waited now his return; eager to disburthen my mind, and to seek of him the solution of the enigma that perplexed me. Stay till he comes, reader; and, when I disclose my secret to him, you shall share the confidence.

[…]

It was not without a certain wild pleasure I ran before the wind delivering my trouble of mind to the measureless air-torrent thundering through space. Descending the laurel-walk, I faced the wreck of the chestnut-tree; it stood up, black and riven: the trunk, split down the centre, gaped ghastly. The cloven halves were not broken from each other, for the firm base and strong roots kept them unsundered below; though community of vitality was destroyed – the sap could flow no more: their great boughs on each side were dead, and the next winter’s tempests would be sure to fell one or both to the earth: as yet, however, they might be said to form one tree – a ruin, but an entire ruin.
“You did right to hold fast to each other,” I said: as if the monster splinters were living things, and could hear me. “I think, scathed as you look, and charred and scorched, there must be a little sense of life in you yet; rising out of the adhesion at the faithful, honest roots: you will never have green leaves more – never more see birds making nests and singing idyls in your boughs; the time of pleasure and love is over with you; but you are not desolate: and each of you has a comrade to sympathise with him in his decay.”

She didn’t have time to ponder the death of this tree — struck by lightning the very night of Mr. Rochester’s proposal, where they had been sitting together mere hours before. If that’s not a sign from God that something’s the matter, I don’t know what is.

Then the wind brings with it rain, and even in the middle of summer, that’s not exactly enjoyable weather.

“I wish he would come! I wish he would come!” I exclaimed, seized with hypochondriac foreboding. I had expected his arrival before tea; now it was dark: what could keep him? Had an accident happened? The event of last night recurred to me. I interpreted it as a warning of disaster. I feared my hopes were too bright to be realised; and I had enjoyed so much bliss lately that I imagined my fortune had passed its meridian, and now must decline.
“Well, I cannot return to the house,” I thought; “I cannot sit by the fireside while he is abroad in inclement weather: better tire my limbs than strain my heart; I will go forward and meet him.”

She only wanders about a quarter mile before he rides up to meet her, and she’s understandably relieved.

“There!” he exclaimed, as he stretched out his hand and bent from the saddle: “You can’t do without me, that is evident. Step on my boot-toe; give me both hands: mount!”
I obeyed; joy made me agile: I sprang up before him. A hearty kissing I got for a welcome; and some boastful triumph; which I swallowed as well as I could. He checked himself in his exultation to demand, “But is anything the matter, Janet, that you come to meet me at such an hour? Is there anything wrong?”
“No; but I thought you would never come. I could not bear to wait in the house for you, especially with this rain and wind.”

So they both get in the house and change out of their wet clothes, before meeting to chat by the fire.

“I ask again, is there anything the matter?”
“Nothing now: I am neither afraid nor unhappy.”
“Then you have been both?”
“Rather: but I’ll tell you about it by-and-by, sir; and I daresay you will laugh at me for my pains.”
“I’ll laugh at you heartily when to-morrow is past; till then I dare not: my prize is not certain.”

Clearly, Mr. Rochester perceives some potential obstacles to their wedding, but opts not to share that with Jane…

I sat down near him; but I told him I could not eat.
“Is it because you have the prospect of a journey before you, Jane? Is it the thoughts of going to London that takes away your appetite?”
“I can hardly see my prospects clearly to-night, sir; and I hardly know what thoughts are in my head. Everything in life seems unreal.”
“Except me: I am substantial enough: – touch me.”
“You, sir, are the most phantom-like of all: you are a mere dream.”
He held out his hand, laughing: “Is that a dream?” said he, placing it close to my eyes. He had a rounded, muscular, and vigorous hand, as well as a long strong arm.
“Yes; though I touch it, it is a dream,” said I, as I put it down from before my face.

She waits for him to finish supper before proceeding.

When we were again alone, I stirred the fire, and took a low seat at my master’s knee.
“It’s near midnight,” I said.
“Yes: but remember, Jane, you promised to wake with me the night before the wedding.”
“I did; and I will keep my promise, for an hour or two at least: I have no wish to go to bed.”
“Are all your arrangements complete?”
“All, sir.”
“And on my part, likewise,” he returned, “I have settled everything; and we shall leave Thornfield to-morrow, within half an hour after our return from church.”
“Very well, sir.”
“With what an extraordinary smile you utter that word – ‘very well,’ Jane! What a bright spot of colour you have on each cheek! and how strangely your eyes glitter! Are you well?”
“I believe I am.”
“Believe! What is the matter? – Tell me what you feel.”
“I could not, sir: no words could tell you what I feel. I wish this present hour would never end: who knows with what fate the next may come charged?”

He wants to dismiss all her apprehensions as anxiety about her change in status, but Jane knows it’s deeper than that, so she begins recounting the events of the day before.

“All day yesterday I was very busy, and very happy in my ceaseless bustle; for I am not, as you seem to think, troubled by any haunting fears about the new sphere, et cetera: I think it a glorious thing to have the hope of living with you, because I love you. No sir, don’t caress me now – let me talk undisturbed. Yesterday I trusted well in Providence, and believed that events were working together for your good and mine: it was a fine day, if you recollect – the calmness of the air and sky forbade apprehension respecting your safety or comfort on your journey. I walked a little while on the pavement after tea, thinking of you; and I beheld you in imagination so near me I scarcely missed your actual presence. I thought of the life that lay before me- your life, sir, – an existence more expansive and stirring than my own: as much more so as the depths of the sea to which the brook runs are than the shallows of its own strait channel. I wondered why moralists call this world a dreary wilderness: for me it blossomed like a rose. Just at sunset the air turned cold and the sky cloudy: I went in. Sophie called me upstairs to look at my wedding-dress, which they had just brought; and under it in the box I found your present – the veil which, in your princely extravagance, you sent for from London: resolved, I suppose, since I would not have jewels, to cheat me into accepting something as costly. I smiled as I unfolded it, and devised how I would tease you about your aristocratic tastes, and your efforts to masque your plebeian bride in the attributes of a peeress. I thought how I would carry down to you the square of unembroidered blond I had myself prepared as a covering for my low-born head, and ask if it was not good enough for a woman who could bring her husband neither fortune, beauty, nor connections. I saw plainly how you would look; and heard your haughty disavowal of any necessity on your part to augment your wealth, or elevate your standing, by marrying either a purse or a coronet.”
“How well you read me, you witch!” interposed Mr. Rochester; “but what did you find in the veil besides its embroidery? Did you find poison, or a dagger, that you look so mournful now?”
“No, no, sir; besides the delicacy and richness of the fabric, I found nothing save Fairfax Rochester’s pride; and that did not scare me, because I am used to the sight of the demon.”

But she’s still only setting the scene for the real narrative…

“I wished you were at home. I came into this room, and the sight of the empty chair and fireless hearth chilled me. For some time after I went to bed I could not sleep – a sense of anxious excitement distressed me. The gale still rising seemed to my ear to muffle a mournful under-sound; whether in the house or abroad I could not at first tell, but it recurred, doubtful yet doleful at every lull: at last I made out it must be some dog howling at a distance. I was glad when it ceased. On sleeping, I continued in dreams the idea of a dark and gusty night. I continued also the wish to be with you, and experienced a strange, regretful consciousness of some barrier dividing us. During all my first sleep I was following the windings of an unknown road; total obscurity environed me; rain pelted me; I was burdened with the charge of a little child: a very small creature, too young and feeble to walk, and which shivered in my cold arms and wailed piteously in my ear. I strained every nerve to overtake you, and made effort on effort to utter your name and entreat you to stop – but my movements were fettered; and my voice still died away inarticulate; while you, I felt, withdrew farther and farther every moment.”
“And those dreams weigh on your spirits now, Jane, when I am close to you? Little nervous subject! Forget visionary woe, and think only of real happiness! You say you love me, Janet: yes – I will not forget that; and you cannot deny it. Those words did not die inarticulate on your lips. I heard them clear and soft: a thought too solemn perhaps, but sweet as music – ‘I think it a glorious thing to have the hope of living with you, Edward, because I love you.’ – Do you love me, Jane? Repeat it.”
“I do, sir, – I do with my whole heart.”
“Well,” he said, after some minutes’ silence, “it is strange; but that sentence has penetrated my breast painfully. Why? I think because you said it with such an earnest, religious energy: and because your upward gaze at me now is the very sublime of faith, truth, and devotion: it is too much as if some spirit were near me. Look wicked, Jane; as you know well how to look; coin one of your wild, shy, provoking smiles; tell me you hate me – tease me, vex me; do anything but move me: I would rather be incensed than saddened.”
“I will tease you and vex you to your heart’s content when I have finished my tale: but hear me to the end.”

He might not know of the superstition that Jane’s been made to believe – that the presence of a child in dreams is a portent of trouble. But she’s only approaching the main point of her narrative.

“I dreamt another dream, sir: that Thornfield Hall was a dreary ruin, the retreat of bats and owls. I thought that of all the stately front nothing remained but a shell-like wall, very high, and very fragile-looking. I wandered, on a moonlight night, through the grass-grown enclosure within: here I stumbled over a marble hearth, and there was a fallen fragment of cornice. Wrapped up in my shawl, I still carried the unknown little child: I might not lay it down anywhere, however tired were my arms – however much its weight impeded my progress, I must retain it. I heard the gallop of a horse at a distance on the road: I was sure it was you; and you were departing for many years, and for a distant country. I climbed the thin wall with frantic, perilous haste, eager to catch one glimpse of you from the top: the stones rolled from under my feet, the ivy branches I grasped gave way, the child clung round my neck in terror, and almost strangled me: at last I gained the summit. I saw a speck on a white track, lessening every moment. The blast blew so strong I could not stand. I sat down on the narrow ledge; I hushed the scared infant in my lap: you turned an angle of the road; I bent forward to take a last look; the wall crumbled; I was shaken; the child rolled from my knee, I lost my balance, fell, and woke.”
“Now, Jane, that is all.”
“All the preface, sir; the tale is yet to come. On waking, a gleam dazzled my eyes: I thought – oh, it is daylight! But I was mistaken: it was only candlelight. Sophie I supposed had come in. There was a light on the dressing-table, and the door of the closet, where, before going to bed, I had hung my wedding-dress and veil, stood open: I heard a rustling there. I asked, ‘Sophie, what are you doing?’ No one answered; but a form emerged from the closet: it took the light, held it aloft, and surveyed the garments pendant from the portmanteau. ‘Sophie! Sophie!’ I again cried: and still it was silent. I had risen up in bed; I bent forward: first surprise, then bewilderment, came over me; and then my blood crept cold through my veins. Mr. Rochester, this was not Sophie, it was not Leah, it was not Mrs. Fairfax: it was not- no, I was sure of it, and am still – it was not even that strange woman, Grace Poole.”
“It must have been one of them,” interrupted my master.
“No, sir, I solemnly assure you to the contrary. The shape standing before me had never crossed my eyes within the precincts of Thornfield Hall before; the height, the contour, were new to me.”

So evidently, she fell out of the habit of locking her door…

“It seemed, sir, a woman, tall and large, with thick and dark hair hanging long down her back. I know not what dress she had on: it was white and straight; but whether gown, sheet, or shroud, I cannot tell.”
“Did you see her face?”
“Not at first. But presently she took my veil from its place; she held it up, gazed at it long, and then she threw it over her own head, and turned to the mirror. At that moment I saw the reflection of the visage and features quite distinctly in the dark oblong glass.”
“And how were they?”
“Fearful and ghastly to me – oh, sir, I never saw a face like it! It was a discoloured face – it was a savage face. I wish I could forget the roll of the red eyes and the fearful blackened inflation of the lineaments.”
“Ghosts are usually pale, Jane.”
“This, sir, was purple: the lips were swelled and dark; the brow furrowed; the black eyebrows widely raised over the bloodshot eyes. Shall I tell you of what it reminded me?”
“You may.”
“Of the foul German spectre – the Vampyre.”
“Ah? – What did it do?”
“Sir, it removed my veil from its gaunt head, rent it in two parts, and flinging both on the floor, trampled on them.”
“Afterwards?”
“It drew aside the window-curtain and looked out: perhaps it saw dawn approaching, for, taking the candle, it retreated to the door. Just at my bedside the figure stopped: the fiery eye glared upon me – she thrust up her candle close to my face and extinguished it under my eyes. I was aware her lurid visage flamed over mine, and I lost consciousness: for the second time in my life – only the second time – I became insensible from terror.”

Since the first time she was rendered unconscious from terror, it was what she believed to be an encounter with a vengeful ghost, she assumes this encounter was some sort of vengeful spirit, too. But she understandably wants to believe there’s a rational explanation.

“Now, sir, tell me who and what that woman was?”
“The creature of an over-stimulated brain; that is certain. I must be careful of you, my treasure: nerves like yours were not made for rough handling.”
“Sir, depend on it, my nerves were not in fault; the thing was real: the transaction actually took place.”
“And your previous dreams: were they real too? Is Thornfield Hall in ruin? Am I severed from you by insuperable obstacles? Am I leaving you without a tear – without a kiss – without a word?”
“Not yet.”
“Am I about to do it? – Why, the day is already commenced which is to bind us indissolubly; and when once united, there shall be no recurrence of these mental terrors: I guarantee that.”
“Mental terrors, sir! I wish I could believe them to be only such: I wish it more now than ever; since even you cannot explain to me the mystery of that awful visitant.”
“And since I cannot do it, Jane, it must have been unreal.”
“But, sir, when I said so to myself on rising this morning, and when I looked round the room to gather courage and comfort from the cheerful aspect of each familiar object in full daylight, there – on the carpet – I saw what gave the distinct lie to the hypothesis, – the veil, torn from top to bottom, in two halves!”

then he proceeds to gaslight her

I felt Mr. Rochester start and shudder; he hastily flung his arms around me.
“Thank God!” he exclaimed, “that if anything malignant did come near you last night, it was only the veil that was harmed. – Oh, to think what might have happened!”
He drew his breath short. and strained me so close to him I could scarcely pant. “Now, Janet, I’ll explain to you all about it. It was half dream, half reality: a woman did, I doubt not, enter your room: and that woman was – must have been – Grace Poole. You call her strange yourself: from all you know you have reason so to call her – what did she do to me? what to Mason? In a state between sleeping and waking you noticed her entrance and actions; but feverish. almost delirious as you were, you ascribed to her a goblin appearance different from her own: the long disheveled hair, the swelled black face, the exaggerated stature, were figments of imagination; results of nightmare: the spiteful tearing of the veil was real: and it is like her. I see you would ask why I keep such a woman in my house: when we have been married a year and a day, I will tell you; but not now. Are you satisfied, Jane? Do you accept my solution of the mystery?”

But why would she imagine a face (and body) she’d never seen before? It would be more likely she’d picture Grace Poole in such a situation. AND HE STILL REFUSES TO TELL HER THE DANGER! It would be one thing if he’s keeping secrets that don’t concern Jane, but this secret is clearly a threat to her!

Anyhow, Jane relents and accepts his narrative, probably because she’ll be away for months on their honeymoon, so doings at Thornfield will (hopefully) not affect her.

“And now, no more sombre thoughts: chase dull care away, Janet. Don’t you hear to what soft whispers the wind has fallen? and there is no more beating of rain against the windowpanes: look here” (he lifted the curtain) – “it is a lovely night!”
It was. Half heaven was pure and stainless: the clouds, now trooping before the wind, which had shifted to the west, were filing off eastward in long, silvered columns. The moon shone peacefully.
“Well” said Mr. Rochester, gazing inquiringly into my eyes, “how is my Janet now?”
“The night is serene, sir; and so am I.”

But he still takes precautions, telling Jane to sleep in the nursery and lock the door.

“And you will not dream of separation and sorrow to-night; but of happy love and blissful union.”
This prediction was but half fulfilled: I did not indeed dream of sorrow, but as little did I dream of joy; for I never slept at all. With little Adèle in my arms, I watched the slumber of childhood – so tranquil, so passionless, so innocent – and waited for the coming day: all my life was awake and astir in my frame; and as soon as the sun rose I rose too. I remember Adèle clung to me as I left her; I remember I kissed her as I loosened her little hands from my neck; and I cried over her with strange emotion, and quitted her because I feared my sobs would break her still sound repose. She seemed the emblem of my past life; and he, I was now to array myself to meet, the dread, but adored, type of my unknown future day.

Eerily, she doesn’t dream, but she’s still troubled by a child on the eve of her wedding…

Until next time…